Complement

Chhorda many a time expressed that my ideas are not original.

Mr. Milhollen once came to me asked if the emulator I developed is real; I took it as complement.

I was pursued by Interra IT to give them a software I developed independently and entirely start to end. I was miserable since I did not wish to be arm twisted by rogues to give away my intellectual property. I take this as complement that I could develop entirely my own. 

I developed some suite of software product that can be secured itself to the media and cannot be duplicated. It was ingenious. I also developed another software to that could protect software in distribution media a finite number of times. I was proud when someone tried to copy the same from Adobe. It was complement.

How much of me is my invention?

I have done thorough reading in the topic of me. I read ancients thoroughly. I read contemporaries thoroughly. That includes Jiddu Aubrey Osho Purana exhaustively.

My appetite for learning about illusion about vanished. I do not any longer read in this topic nor I express my self except in the blogs I write. They are often very repetitive. I have an unique style of my own to talk about me.

I laugh at my stupidity my self importance and vain me.

Professionally I am hopeful of an assignment. I do not know that would be invention of mine or discovery of me by somebody else. Either way I am not very anxious. If this event does not happen it is OK.

I am not expecting my death from poverty as of now. Even when that happens I do not so much care.

As a child I knew a house wife in a corner of a street, who never bothered to meet her neighbors and be friendly. She was childless but always anticipating disease carried by people to her home. If anyone knocked at her door. She waited for a while after the person left and thoroughly cleaned the door and the porch floor with water.

We may not see with our naked eyes but we are very smart in imagining fatal enemies.

I have started taking precautions ever since; even when I am vulnerable and suffering from disease, I do not protect my existence.

Last night there was an insistent recruiter who wished to rewrite my resume for an IBM assignment. I no longer waste my time for IBM. After some time them would stop. For me I am too much of my worth for IBM that is 100% fraud. My experience tells me.

I wish to be employed on the basis of my 7 pages resume and my past works in my words. They must have confidence in my ability to deliver no matter what they desire. I am not going promise any future. I got married without promising and without knowing what I am getting into. My approach to any kind of possible future is always same.

No anticipation. No promise.

I was attacked by my mother just after my marriage. She wanted a promise from me to her that I would not abandon my just married wife publicly before I cross the threshold of her home I was very annoyed. I cannot ever keep any promise independent of my future. I have not left wife as of now. Although she has left me many times at least once a year and sometimes with lot of public announcement. and I never call her back.She returns on her own.

I lied to my mother knowingly. All my promises are always lies.